
We get to post an original poem for this week's Spin Cycle, and I chose one of mine that I think speaks to this midway point I find myself at, both in mothering and in life.
Without Them
I count on so much:
Wiping away tears when you take your vows,
unable to vanquish your chocolate-stained
two-and-a-half year-old face from my brain.
Watching you hold your newborn,
enlightenment dawning in your exhausted eyes.
You visiting me, old and ancient enough
for you to spoon pudding into my mouth
as we sit and watch movies, arms touching
till I nod off.
My love for you is the standard
by which all emotions are sifted, measured;
it appears I could not live without it.
And while that might be an illusion,
surely without you it would not be life.
It would be something long and treacherous.
A winding mountain road in a blizzard,
to be endured, slogged through,
knowing that windshield wipers are useless
and headlights will never allow more than
a few feet of visibility-
not nearly enough to show clearly that what comes next
may not always be more of the same.
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amazing.
Simply amazing.
Posted by: vodkamom | July 06, 2010 at 07:39 AM
One word...STUNNING!
Posted by: SuziCate | July 06, 2010 at 08:25 AM
It is beautiful Maureen. Life, everything to be grateful for and everything to pray for.
Posted by: Ocean Girl | July 06, 2010 at 08:48 AM
Exactly. Exactly!
I need to go bust my kid out of daycare jail and hug her. And remind her that I like chocolate pudding.
You're linked!
Posted by: Sprite's Keeper | July 06, 2010 at 09:32 AM
That was so awesome! Very emotion provoking and I know EXACTLY how you feel. GREAT spin. I am in awe.
Posted by: Peg | July 06, 2010 at 10:20 AM
I, too, am in awe, being poetically challenged. This is simply WONDERFUL.
Posted by: Jan | July 06, 2010 at 10:25 AM
I am not crying. No, I'm not. You can't prove that. This was beautiful.
Posted by: Mama Badger | July 06, 2010 at 11:45 AM
Beautiful! I'm terribly impressed!
Posted by: Gretchen | July 06, 2010 at 12:48 PM
"it appears I could not live without it.
And while that might be an illusion,
surely without you it would not be life."
Thank you.
Posted by: LPC | July 06, 2010 at 01:22 PM
"Surely without you it would not be life." It makes me all kinds of uncomfortable just to imagine my life without these children. Without being their mother. Without weathering the range of emotions that we feel together. It's almost like there's this little bit of guilt for even having the thought that I could have had another life. But I don't really mind the guilt. Because it stops the thoughts. And let's me know that I am right where I am supposed to be. Living the life, doing the mom thing, weathering the storms. Ahhhh...
Posted by: Sarah | July 06, 2010 at 06:12 PM
I love "arms touching." It captures so much with that small moment. Your imagery throughout is strong, and the poem really captures motherhood at this stage, and the complete emptiness having it taken away would bring.
Posted by: dreamfarmgirl | July 06, 2010 at 07:59 PM
Ok Maureen, you gave me goosebumps. That's not an easy thing to do.
Great poem.
Posted by: Casey | July 06, 2010 at 09:36 PM
That was an amazing poem. I'm going to share it on my FB page. Just wonderful.
Posted by: Tracie | July 06, 2010 at 10:38 PM
That's an amazing poem. I'm quite impressed.
At the same time?
I don't want to get oooooooooollllllllllllldddddddd!
Posted by: Twenty Four At Heart | July 06, 2010 at 11:55 PM
Lovely, Maureen!
Posted by: Linda at Bar Mitzvahzilla | July 07, 2010 at 03:32 AM
Beautiful!
Posted by: ~The South Dakota Cowgirl~ | July 07, 2010 at 08:58 AM
This is beautiful, Maureen. And your close, especially poignant.
Posted by: BigLittleWolf | July 07, 2010 at 12:37 PM
oh my, I'm almost ready to tear up - that is such a powerful description of love. Thanks for sharing.
Posted by: Diane | July 07, 2010 at 05:21 PM
So beautiful! And captures the uncertainty, familiarity, comfort and wonder that is motherhood.
Posted by: Jane | July 07, 2010 at 06:17 PM
Wow.....I mean....WOW.
It is breathtakingly perfect...
It's all there...the pain and uncertainty of letting them go...the wonder at how far they've come...the joy of watching them grow.
Wow.
Posted by: kathryn | July 07, 2010 at 09:28 PM
Really good. I don't usually do poetry, but glad I took the time.
Posted by: Heather | July 08, 2010 at 01:57 PM
Is there a worthwhile beginning and end to that middle.
Remember your Maureen carries something more than Geocaching. ;)
Posted by: Vincent | July 08, 2010 at 02:46 PM
this is gorgeous
Posted by: Lora | July 09, 2010 at 10:14 AM
It shows just how much we cherish those around us and the fear we have if those things are not there when we need them.
Thanks for sharing,
Posted by: Christopher (AKA: CaJoh) | July 09, 2010 at 10:19 AM
Wow, your poem brought tears to my eyes. Thanks for sharing.
Posted by: Patty | July 09, 2010 at 11:36 AM
Oh, wow, this has me sniffling. Especially the line "Without you it would not be life." What was my life like before my children?? Surely it was not as rich or joyful. But my children have become such a huge part of my life that I can't even remember the days before them (except for, well, the sleeping-in part).
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Posted by: canada goose nettbutikk | October 30, 2012 at 11:14 AM
This just shows how sweet and loving you are as mother. And this just inspires me to not just love and take care of my kids but at least express my love and how thankful I am to have them by means of writing a poem. I'm so glad you share this, thank you!
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